this is a long post for me
hi. i'm in the elh booth right now watching abby take a midterm/quiz(?). she doesn't know i'm watching her and it's kinda funny and creepy all at the same time. anyways, i'm waiting until it's 1050am...the time at which i can do my c&cs jobs. at that point i shall leave for icf then sst then for home where i will conjured up some food.
i haven't checked my hotmail account in a long time and i believe that mail is piling up. and i hate sorting thru piled up mail. perhaps i'll delete stuff when summer school is over.
realization: i've been trying to hold onto the wrong things, wrong people, wrong anything. well they're not wrong perse, but they are things that should be let go of, things that need to be let go of. (and this whole time, i thought i already did. my own mind plays tricks on me.) basically it's comes down to one thing and one thing only...i should only be holding onto one person's hand. and frankly i'm not willing to let go of this person again, no matter how much i want to hold onto all these other far fetched wonders. so at this very moment, the grip of my left hand is loosening, which scares me and makes me sad, but the grip in my right hand is firm and steady and constant, which comforts me and brings me confidence.
so the thought of titanic came to mind...gah! "i'll never let go..." see right now i am letting go of jack's hand. why? because it's frozen and cold! and that is how i end this realization. haha,j/k. that whole frozen and cold thing, well that somewhat holds true for the things i'm letting go of. the things aren't cold, but they don't bring about the proper nutrients needed for my growth anymore. (i just finished a microbio midterm, so i'm currently thinking about nutrients, growth, media types, and those freaking microorganisms that are everywhere!) they contributed a lot...a lot...a lot, but the nutrients they have provided are depleted...haha, j/k again. they're not depleted, but they aren't for here anymore. oh mayn, what the heck am i talking about. i'm rambling which is why i should post pictures. and like will said, a pictures worth 1000 words, so with picture plus captions, i am good to go. okay i'll stop now. titanic...why are you in my head?! *shakes arms frantically in air* i wonder if ppl in elh saw that. thinking of nutrients makes me hungry.
i can't post pictures now because i'm still in elh. but i said i would after my midterm which i will when i get home after the eating has finished. i've considered reading ahead for bio 1) because it's the only thing in my backpack 2) because i feel as tho i'm on the brink of doing good for the first time ever. :) so i'll leave you with this, i actually don't know where abby's sitting and thus can't see her, but i know she's in this room. okay, have a good weekend! and for those of you in vegas...good luck and win big! also vegas ppl, remember to hydrate...darn that desert heat!
p.s. don't read too much into this post.
i haven't checked my hotmail account in a long time and i believe that mail is piling up. and i hate sorting thru piled up mail. perhaps i'll delete stuff when summer school is over.
realization: i've been trying to hold onto the wrong things, wrong people, wrong anything. well they're not wrong perse, but they are things that should be let go of, things that need to be let go of. (and this whole time, i thought i already did. my own mind plays tricks on me.) basically it's comes down to one thing and one thing only...i should only be holding onto one person's hand. and frankly i'm not willing to let go of this person again, no matter how much i want to hold onto all these other far fetched wonders. so at this very moment, the grip of my left hand is loosening, which scares me and makes me sad, but the grip in my right hand is firm and steady and constant, which comforts me and brings me confidence.
so the thought of titanic came to mind...gah! "i'll never let go..." see right now i am letting go of jack's hand. why? because it's frozen and cold! and that is how i end this realization. haha,j/k. that whole frozen and cold thing, well that somewhat holds true for the things i'm letting go of. the things aren't cold, but they don't bring about the proper nutrients needed for my growth anymore. (i just finished a microbio midterm, so i'm currently thinking about nutrients, growth, media types, and those freaking microorganisms that are everywhere!) they contributed a lot...a lot...a lot, but the nutrients they have provided are depleted...haha, j/k again. they're not depleted, but they aren't for here anymore. oh mayn, what the heck am i talking about. i'm rambling which is why i should post pictures. and like will said, a pictures worth 1000 words, so with picture plus captions, i am good to go. okay i'll stop now. titanic...why are you in my head?! *shakes arms frantically in air* i wonder if ppl in elh saw that. thinking of nutrients makes me hungry.
i can't post pictures now because i'm still in elh. but i said i would after my midterm which i will when i get home after the eating has finished. i've considered reading ahead for bio 1) because it's the only thing in my backpack 2) because i feel as tho i'm on the brink of doing good for the first time ever. :) so i'll leave you with this, i actually don't know where abby's sitting and thus can't see her, but i know she's in this room. okay, have a good weekend! and for those of you in vegas...good luck and win big! also vegas ppl, remember to hydrate...darn that desert heat!
p.s. don't read too much into this post.
posted by bellamay at 10:12 AM
3 Comments:
i totally skipped over your paragraph about the nutrients. hahahaha. but keep blogging... blogging is your duty to society... it means you're doing good or well. whichever. hahaha.
LOL. that's kinda creepy that you were in elh while i was taking/failing my quiz. i was sitting on the left hand side in the very very front! unlike anna, i read your paragraph about the nutrients but i understood absolultely nothing. haha. hey, i miss you!
bmay...don't let go of my hand!
lol ;p
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