missing classes

it's quite past my bedtime but for some reason i had an urge to jot down a few thoughts. i wish i took pictures today. i miss taking pictures/recording things. anyways...

first of all,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JAMIE OBAL! i hope you have a wonderful and fun filled day! :D

okay, now for the random things floating in my head...

i haven't been to physics lecture in over a week. am i surviving? apparently yes, but we'll truly find out after november 27.

i was suppose to due some research on an Assyrian relief sculpture today, but didn't because i opted to play mafia instead...ugh. so yes, i'm stressing a little about this one. i haven't written a paper in over a year nor have i done research in over a year and the paper's due on wednesday. i'm not the type to write/research these things over night.

yes, i am lost and nervous. and yes, i'm very distracted.

why am i acting like it's week 1?! or in this quarter's case, weeks 2, 3, and a bit of 4.

on another note, i can't get myself to go. actually i really just don't want to. i feel guilty. you know why i feel guilty, because. i'm sitting there in my car and all i have to do it get out a walk a short distance. but i don't. bitterness...maybe. distant, yes. am i okay with it? no. but can i fix it? i don't want to.

i hate when i'm being stubborn.

i currently feel like leaving things as they are. which would mean i'm not considering moving forward. am i stagnant? yes. do i care? not really. have i cried? haha, i don't cry. but am i worried? i think so.

this feels like a personal survey where i'm complaining too much. sorry, i'll stop now.

for fun news and out of this annoying junk floating in my academically inactive brain, toni and frances are sleeping over right now. i don't want to get into my bed because it makes a lot of noise and i'm pretty sure i'm gonna wake one of them up...abby included.

haha, i got a shot today and i believe about 5 people hit it...like literally a punch/slap. oh well. things heal, right? i hope so.

hey, thanksgiving is coming. i'm excited because that means were getting closer to Christmas. cool! the Christmas season makes me feel at home.

lately i've been exceptionally thirsty. actually i've been thirsty for the past month or so. it's driving me mad cuz i always want to drink water or gatorade, juice, slushy's, or even soda. i wonder if this thirst has to do with something deeper. hmm...

okay, well there's more i could say...but it's almost 3am and i think it's about time i sleep.

good night and happy birthday jamie!