ants are not cool
ok, so i know i just blogged like 3 mins ago...but well i have more time to spare or at least i making more time to spare.
i hate ants. they make themselves appear all cute in movies like "a bug's life" when i reality they really aren't. they follow u like crazy...from irvine to ontario, from ontario to irvine. they hide in my car and start crawling on my windshield while i'm driving on the freeway. i'm so tempted to kill them right then and there, then i realize i shouldn't take my hand off the wheel and they're too far away for my not to. how do they get in my car...argheraw! ok, that's all.
so i'm currently experiencing major confusion. after seeing/sort of hanging out with some high school friends last night i feel confused. ok, not so much confused just out of place. really, as they were talking and such i was thinking (once again thinking way too much) how do i slide back into this. can i slide back into this? it's difficult and i'm full of uncertainty. i feel like when i left, my image or how they saw me then was frozen in that moment and now that image is melting and i'm back in, but not really. because that frozen image is still frozen for i am no longer that person, hopefully. i'm hoping i've stepped forward. i don't want to step back, not again. i hope when i hang out with them more this summer i don't take a step back into that frozen image of myself. ok, i don't think that whole frozen image made sense at all cuz i'm really bad with words, but it's kinda how my mind is describing it right now. i guess there's more ways to describe it or explain it, but i'll just leave it at that. oh too much thought on this topic...gotta study for my last final...whoo! alright...i'm done now...gonna make my way over to mass! yay!!!
i hate ants. they make themselves appear all cute in movies like "a bug's life" when i reality they really aren't. they follow u like crazy...from irvine to ontario, from ontario to irvine. they hide in my car and start crawling on my windshield while i'm driving on the freeway. i'm so tempted to kill them right then and there, then i realize i shouldn't take my hand off the wheel and they're too far away for my not to. how do they get in my car...argheraw! ok, that's all.
so i'm currently experiencing major confusion. after seeing/sort of hanging out with some high school friends last night i feel confused. ok, not so much confused just out of place. really, as they were talking and such i was thinking (once again thinking way too much) how do i slide back into this. can i slide back into this? it's difficult and i'm full of uncertainty. i feel like when i left, my image or how they saw me then was frozen in that moment and now that image is melting and i'm back in, but not really. because that frozen image is still frozen for i am no longer that person, hopefully. i'm hoping i've stepped forward. i don't want to step back, not again. i hope when i hang out with them more this summer i don't take a step back into that frozen image of myself. ok, i don't think that whole frozen image made sense at all cuz i'm really bad with words, but it's kinda how my mind is describing it right now. i guess there's more ways to describe it or explain it, but i'll just leave it at that. oh too much thought on this topic...gotta study for my last final...whoo! alright...i'm done now...gonna make my way over to mass! yay!!!
posted by bellamay at 11:17 AM
4 Comments:
yeah yeah i know im supposed to be studying but i can so relate to what you're saying about that frozen image and sliding back in. it makes sense, it really does. i guess i'll have to wait and see what happens tomorrow when i go back. thanks for being a great friend!!!
p.s. you better go to late night and sign my "yearbook" today! YOU HAVE TO. thanks! :)
you're an anteater. ants are bothering you. why? i don't know. good luck on your final!
Eat the ants.
i can't eat ants...they really don't taste like chocolates as my dad once told me way back when.
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