alright, so i am in a blogging mood, yet the mood i am in is not quite blogging material. i'm not moody or sad or angry or indifferent or even super duper happy. i'm just (fill in the blank). i think i should continue studying for my midterm tomorrow, but i don't know what else to cover. this is how my midterms always are. i get it! i really get it, but when that packet of papers is placed in front of me, the words and numbers will get jumbled. i'll get a headache and try to calm myself by repeating, "relax, relax...u know this stuff." i'll look around and see everyone concentrating and realize i'm in a very confined spot and start to breath heavily because i become very uncomfortable in small quiet spots. and no matter how badly i want that A and how much i've studied, in the end...well it's the end. it's 9:00pm on a thursday night. i'm gonna watch grey's anatomy now. peace. good luck everyone! prayers all around!

ps. i think i'm a bad friend, maybe that's what's eating me.