this if very unorganized

i had a very unproductive day again. i believe that's 4 days in a row now. my dang allergies resulting in me taking benadryl and sleeping for over 2 hours didn't help either. i know i don't have midterms coming up, but dang i gotta get this show on the road. and now, i'm sure me blogging isn't going to make anything better. haha. okay, sorry about that. i usually prefer not to state the unnecessary and the past 5 sentences are unnecessary.

i had a dream during my 2 hour + nap. but i will not repeat what it was about nor will i post it in my dream blog. and don't go thinking it was something inappropriate because it wasn't. i just wanted to let you know that it was awkward and i've officially made myself feel very uncomfortable around a certain someone. so if you notice some unusual behavior, it's most definitely not your fault and i apologize in advance. that is all. :)

good night.

i'm in a place where time is moving slow, so slow i have time to process my thoughts. however, i can't process these thoughts because my thoughts make no sense. i have this strange feeling that i'm overlooking the bigger picture. there's something much greater and i can't clarify what that is. all i can see is this moment right here and know that in another moment it'll be gone.

i think unproductive days are really bad when you know exactly what you need to do and you have it right in front of you. all i really have to do is pick up the pen and write or open the book and read.

i had something very specific that i wanted to say, but now i can't remember it. well if i think of it, i'll post it later. hopefully i won't forget it when i do remember it.

it's kinda funny cuz there's this feeling inside of me and i think it's love.

casper's lullaby can make me happy and sad at the same time.

i forgot halloween is this tuesday. personally it's not in my top 3 favorite holidays. frankly i overlook it so much it's not even a holiday to me. sorry for those of you who really like this holiday. i wonder if my dislike for it has to do with a repressed memory. haha, i doubt that.

my tennis coach invited me to the girls tennis banquet. and i'd actually be able to go this year, if i hadn't made plans in advance. and i hardly ever make plans in advance hence why i'm so versatile. apparently that day i'll be watching a young cub grow up with a warthog and meerkat. which is something i'm looking forward to. :)

here's to an abrupt ending.