is it possible to get sick in the stomach from looking at old high school pics? cuz i just did. i don't even know why. i kinda feel like throwing up, and no, it wasn't the food i ate earlier. it's like the pictures grossed me out, but for some reason i couldn't stop looking at them. haha, it's funny, but i don't feel good anymore. also i don't think i want to study anymore. i always find myself blogging the nights before a chem test. maybe it's some kind of comfort thing.
anywho, i actually don't have much to say tonight, just that i'm almost done with my 4th quarter of college. 2 more days and the past 11 weeks will be a blur...blending in with the rest of my short 19 years of life. gosh, i keep imagining when i'm 52 in 2039 and thinking, "i can't remember what the heck happened in 2006." not that it'd matter that i remember, cuz really, it'd only matter that it happened. all i gots to do is keep moving forward. it doesn't matter where i end up as long as it's forward. actually i do care where i end up, but i'd like to leave that in someone else's hands. for all i know, i may never make it to my 52nd bday...and to be honest, i may never even make it to the age of 20. haha, oh mayn. i like this game (the game of life that is), it's so random and truly spontaneous. i keep wishing to live a spontaneous life when in fact i really am. maybe not as spontaneous as others, but seriously i think that fact that i may die tonight in my sleep and not have to take my ochem final tomorrow shows how spontaneous i really am. of course if i did die tonight, i wouldn't get to see lion king on friday. ok, i'm done with death for tonight. i'm gonna go have my last meal, j/k. i'm gonna eat dinner. peace. good luck. prayers. take care. have a good break and life.
anywho, i actually don't have much to say tonight, just that i'm almost done with my 4th quarter of college. 2 more days and the past 11 weeks will be a blur...blending in with the rest of my short 19 years of life. gosh, i keep imagining when i'm 52 in 2039 and thinking, "i can't remember what the heck happened in 2006." not that it'd matter that i remember, cuz really, it'd only matter that it happened. all i gots to do is keep moving forward. it doesn't matter where i end up as long as it's forward. actually i do care where i end up, but i'd like to leave that in someone else's hands. for all i know, i may never make it to my 52nd bday...and to be honest, i may never even make it to the age of 20. haha, oh mayn. i like this game (the game of life that is), it's so random and truly spontaneous. i keep wishing to live a spontaneous life when in fact i really am. maybe not as spontaneous as others, but seriously i think that fact that i may die tonight in my sleep and not have to take my ochem final tomorrow shows how spontaneous i really am. of course if i did die tonight, i wouldn't get to see lion king on friday. ok, i'm done with death for tonight. i'm gonna go have my last meal, j/k. i'm gonna eat dinner. peace. good luck. prayers. take care. have a good break and life.
posted by bellamay at 6:50 PM
3 Comments:
when I write stuff like this people call me morbid. However I like this kind of stuff. Tomorrow's promised to no one. You are taking a final right now presuming you woke up this morning... Praying for you.
bellamay!! if i had finished reading your post last night i would have yelled at you this morning about the 'dying' thing. hope your final went well. =)
bellamay! u can't die. u still owe me dinner. haha. well, we'll see in a couple weeks if u do. teehee =D i might be taking u out to dinner so hole dup!
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