"and so it begins...again": defined

yesterday i noticed something different about the world. it was so bright. the colors were crisp and clear. lines were defined. green was really green, blue was really blue, and red was really red. it wasn't so much of an autumn appearance although it felt like a california autumn (not that california even experiences autumn.) i think the color scheme must've been from the wind blowing the clouds away allowing the sun to shine clearly. for the first time in a long time i appreciated the mild wind. usually i'm a light breeze kinda gal. the wind yesterday was stronger, but not too strong. and i liked it. surprisingly i didn't have allergies. i sorta wish i had a chance to stroll in the park. luckily during my early drive home i had time to admire the scenery. not that the drive from irvine to ontario has much scenery, but somehow i came to appreciate it in one way or another.

haha, i also noticed it was slightly quieter in my head when i drove home. don't know what brought that about. it must've been my eagerness to talk to frances about the past week and a half. i'm trying to figure out how to adjust so as to make time to call her. it's funny cuz before i never had to call her to tell her how my day was. it was always we'd come home from school together and in that short 10 minute drive, the day would unfold. in fact last week, i failed to call home several days in a row. disappointing, no? ya, i was distracted, i suppose. distracted by what? i'm not sure. frances and i talked a lot friday and my aunt said, "you guys are talking a lot. it must be because you haven't seen each other in awhile." she was right.

i guess it's just one more thing to work on...to change. because the fact of the matter is, i don't like talking on the phone. i prefer talking in person or sadly even talking on aim over talking on the phone. i associate talking on the phone with a sore neck from doing the whole shoulder neck thing. i don't usualy hold the phone like that either, but it just bothers me. i think i'm too lazy to hold the phone to my ear. talking in person is always fun. and typing is less strenuous than holding a phone. and finally my attention span on the phone is much worse and plus i have horrible hearing. bad reception kills me cuz then the convo is a lot of, "what'd you say?!"

but it's not like i'm saying don't call me. because if i haven't talked to you in awhile or if you're far away meaning distance prevents us from talking in person or if you just need someone to talk to, i'd happily talk on the phone with you. seriously, when i say i'm only 10 digits away, i mean it. i guess i'm saying i need to change. what else is new? you should never be the same person for too long because then it's not worth the stay.

this blog is strange for me. i feel no need to be sarcastic. i just want to say how it is. cuz this IS how it is. so for comedic purposes or in my attempt to produce some kind of smirk on your face...look at these: