#43

i have to admit that there were countless times today when i felt like an idiot...a fool. okay, maybe that's not the right adjective, but at those times all i could say to myself was, "you're an idiot!!!" the voice in my head (aka my conscience) can be pretty harsh sometimes. she's just plain mean. but i guess she keeps me aware and rational. either way, she's difficult sometimes, but i have no other choice than to work with her.

currently i'm suppose to be doing what my roommate is doing...studying for physics. yet i'm not...idiot mistake #43 today...haha. anyways, as i was sneezing my way around campus today all i could think about was sleep and perhaps a cup of hot tea with chicken noodle soup. somewhere along the lines i pretty much got that...a 30 minute nap before my physics lab final, hot and sour soup from rice garden before art history discussion, and hot calamansi juice with honey (kinda like hot lemonade, but calamansi). well in the midst of this sneezing and such, i thought of last winter quarter when once again a cold attacked me bitterly the saturday before finals week. right now, i pushing myself not to get as bad as i was last year...either that or get better while i'm ahead. i think i've exceeded my vitamin C intake for the week in one day. it's all from the oranges i keep peeling and eating, the orange juice i drank and accidentally spilled on my chair and physics book, and vitamin C supplements i keep swallowing. i'm aiming for completely restored health by saturday morning. in the mean time, i intend on my health not interferring between my battle with physics.

it kinda makes me laugh because in addition to the fact that i hate physics...i'm sick. it's like making abby eat bacon while she's eating pickles. haha, that's a really weird and dumb analogy, but that's all my brain could come up with. of course for me, pickles and bacon are delicious. not exactly together unless in a hamburger.

anyways, i'm gonna try to learn one more equation before i head over to campus to do lock-ups. wish me luck! :D

P.S. as frustrated as i was today, i found one moment (actually i think it was 3 minutes) of complete calmness. a feeling that i haven't felt in awhile. so in the long run, i think it was worth it...or at least i'm trying to believe it's worth it. :)

let's be winners!!! good luck everyone!! i'm praying for you!!