sinking

i'm currently looking for a distraction. but not really. i'm lazy right now. i want to sleep. but then i know i really didn't try to study. i think i might be getting sick. i'm not sure. we'll see how the next couple days turn out.

there's a lot of things going on in my mind right now. i'm probably over analyzing about 3 or 4 of them. but i have to. if not now, when? there are somethings you just can't take forever to figure out. there is a time limit to all of this. a time limit to life. otherwise someone's going to get hurt.

i think right now i'm honestly not doing so well. i hate to say it, but right now is not the best time. i know timing can suck sometimes, but right now it really does. who knew being 20 would be so difficult. and now comes the i told you so...i miss being 19. i can truly say it was a bit easier. but i guess yay for challenges and all that fun stuff. growth with Him by my side.

why was today so hot? and no it wasn't because i saw anna because i really didn't have the honor of seeing anna. let's hope it cools down. however it was a nice night to ride my bike around.

why is it that anger follows sadness? or at least for me.

sorry, my head is not in the game as hard as i'm trying for it to be.

even though i know He'll never leave my side. i can't help but still feel scared. and uncertain. why me? ....

actually don't answer that.

i had the sudden image of eating a baked potatoe w/ sour cream and butter. yum!

it's time to go home.