interesting.

there's something rather interesting about life. frustrating, but interesting. i can't quite place my finger on what i find interesting, but life just is. i'd hardly say that life being interesting is what keeps me going...there are other things, i suppose, that push me forward.

facinating. it's all just facinating. i don't know why. i think He makes it interesting and for some strange reason, at this very moment in time, i am in awe. and those feelings that we feel...the ones that you just don't understand or can't quite seem to shake, linger on.

i asked why this morning, what led me to forget about that feeling. tonight, i remembered and i felt it. so in my attempt to shake off feelings i don't want to feel anymore, what i feel now and what i know now is once again certain. whoa, did that make sense?

by the way, why do we feel what we feel? at times it's very difficult to stop feeling certain ways even when we know they're wrong. i mean, ultimately, the choice on how to act in regards to those feelings is up to us, but still those feelings...they're hard to get rid of. hard to push away. but they're there for a reason, no?

thoughts:

reminders are helpful.

some people never change.

cry all you want.

and why does it have to be great...think simple.

desire.

what i once knew is different now. i'm happy that it's good, but sad that it's changed.

this isnt' it, is it?

they will never know.

just as i will never know either.

in the end, courage is what i lack and also what i seek.

interesting...very interesting.