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i often deny my excitement. but really, i am excited. it takes awhile for that joy to kick in. i guess that's what makes me an in the moment type person. i feel what i feel at that moment and that's all there is to it. it's quite a rush and that's why i look forward to those moments so much.
at times i get discouraged or sad. i like to limit those moments, but i don't fight them. i let them take their natural course. basically i sit and wait. sometimes i think and rethink. the question really is: did i bring this upon myself, or did you? a little bit of both i suppose.
then there's the angry moments. my temper used to get the best of me. quite an internal struggle holding my temper, monitoring my words and actions. i'm surprised i never got into kick boxing or something to release it all. cuz really how much anger can i release when playing tennis. in fact, it might make me more angry since i'd be slamming the balls to the fence; thus, hitting the ball out every time. a very frustrating experience.
speaking of tennis, i played for TWO hours yesterday morning. something i haven't done in awhile. got the blisters on my right hand and sore muscles on my sides to prove it. plus slightly darker arms. anyways, fran and i played mixed doubles with these older filipino guys. went to tie breaker, good set. in the end fran and her partner won. but i had lots of fun. i realized i missed that competition. it's so thrilling and it really pushes you mentally and physically. i think when i was in high school, i was physically strong, but not mentally. these days, i think it's the opposite. i'm currently mentally strong, but sadly physically weak. oh well, good times all the way.
dude, federer vs. nadal. enough said. didn't sit and watch the entire match, but i got to see a lot of the end. seriously, tennis at its best! i kept thinking that as much as i wanted federer to win, it didn't matter in the end. reason why? because both players deserved to win, hitting crazy good shots throughout the 4 hour tennis match. so whoever triumphed in the end totally deserved it.
just a reminder for me to fight for what i want, no matter how long the match lasts. cuz really it's all a mental game. i know that i can keep going as long as my mind to tells me to keep going. haha, it's kinda of like eating...mind over matter. j/k.
alright, i'm out. haven't studied at all since i first sat down in front of my computer 2 and half hours ago. bye!
at times i get discouraged or sad. i like to limit those moments, but i don't fight them. i let them take their natural course. basically i sit and wait. sometimes i think and rethink. the question really is: did i bring this upon myself, or did you? a little bit of both i suppose.
then there's the angry moments. my temper used to get the best of me. quite an internal struggle holding my temper, monitoring my words and actions. i'm surprised i never got into kick boxing or something to release it all. cuz really how much anger can i release when playing tennis. in fact, it might make me more angry since i'd be slamming the balls to the fence; thus, hitting the ball out every time. a very frustrating experience.
speaking of tennis, i played for TWO hours yesterday morning. something i haven't done in awhile. got the blisters on my right hand and sore muscles on my sides to prove it. plus slightly darker arms. anyways, fran and i played mixed doubles with these older filipino guys. went to tie breaker, good set. in the end fran and her partner won. but i had lots of fun. i realized i missed that competition. it's so thrilling and it really pushes you mentally and physically. i think when i was in high school, i was physically strong, but not mentally. these days, i think it's the opposite. i'm currently mentally strong, but sadly physically weak. oh well, good times all the way.
dude, federer vs. nadal. enough said. didn't sit and watch the entire match, but i got to see a lot of the end. seriously, tennis at its best! i kept thinking that as much as i wanted federer to win, it didn't matter in the end. reason why? because both players deserved to win, hitting crazy good shots throughout the 4 hour tennis match. so whoever triumphed in the end totally deserved it.
just a reminder for me to fight for what i want, no matter how long the match lasts. cuz really it's all a mental game. i know that i can keep going as long as my mind to tells me to keep going. haha, it's kinda of like eating...mind over matter. j/k.
alright, i'm out. haven't studied at all since i first sat down in front of my computer 2 and half hours ago. bye!
posted by bellamay at 2:46 PM
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go tennis!! woo-hoo. :D
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