hey, hey, hey!!!

so i read somewhere that feeling angry more often is a sign of decreased brain function. just great, i say...just great!

anyways, i'm back in canada for the weekend once again. and just a moment ago i tried playing piano. dude, i suck...seriously...it's disappointing. it's like when u spend all that time wearing braces and then you stop wearing your retainer so all that time you spent wearing the braces cancels out. yea...that's what i feel like right now. all that time in front of the piano and here i am lost and confused. so i guess that means i'll be trying to at the very least refresh my limited knowledge of the piano. the thing is, i've never been musically inclined...basically music isn't my forte. though i wish it was. either way i love the sound...can't seem to get enough of it. :)

also, word just got in that kirsten destroyed my duffel bag. my precious aeropostale duffel bag...haha. it's all good though. however, we're no longer friends...kirsten and i, that is. lol, okay...i'm just kidding. but seriously kirsten, i loved that bag...but not really. =P

alright, so other news. hmm...well, i remembered when my pharmacy tech certification test is. phew. but that also means i gotta start studying. i need to tear open that plastic covering on the book. i know...i know...it's terrible that i haven't started studying...even regretful, but it's never too late.

btw, i love pork chops and sinigang! and tonight...tacos. this morning i tried with all my might not to eat a lot for breakfast. okay, i didn't try that hard, but i tried. i decided to just eat a bagel. and right after i finished the last bite of that bagel, i realized i wanted rice and egg with the left over pork chops. i'm weak...i'll admit it. so i pulled out a pan and gave into my stomach. really, i used to be stronger, but these days food is so inviting. it kills me. if i was a super hero, my kryptonite would be food. i'm interested in working out and getting back in shape because, no lie, i can feel how out of shape i am. it's hard to lift my backpack and such. so here's the plan...okay, so i don't have a plan. but i will start doing some form of exercise because all this laziness is really bad and it's not the person i want to be. yes, i'm going to be a better person...just you wait. the new and improved bmay is on her way. first though i have to make a phone call that i can't seem to muster up the courage to make.

it was on the drive home that i finally got to savor the moment. it just feels like i haven't been able to sit and breathe lately. you know that feeling when you get to take it all in. yea, i miss it. so the drive gave me sometime to think, and suddenly i felt the feeling of regret. i guess i do regret a few of the choices i've made in the last 2-3 weeks or so. right now, i want to move past it all. let's grow up, okay? i think it's time.

speaking of time...i must finish my study guide and stage 4 of my project today because tomorrow ladies and gentlemen....

we bbq...

in riverside!!!

see you later!!