first and foremost,

in the words of eric matthews, "he who hesitates is lost..."

when i first started playing tennis competitively, i pushed myself to stop hesitating. you have to dedicate yourself to the shot, especially when you're up at the net. you either go for it or you don't and when you don't even try, most likely it's a loss on your part. for me, tennis is mostly instinct. i play based on what i feel. and when i think i have it, i go for it. it took awhile to smooth my game out, which obviously is what practice is for. anyways, my point is...i learned how to not hold back. i went for my shots with no hesitation. and if i messed up, yea i would get mad, but in my mind it is better to have tried than to have simply let the ball pass me by.

i'm trying to not let certain things pass me by. but man, moments do pass by quickly.

i think when time slows down a bit, i want to get back in shape, pick up my tennis game, and play competitively again. i miss that. i guess that won't be for awhile tho. =/

hmm...first and last question:
how do you get past all the guilt? how do you deal with it?

i know we are all worth something. He makes us worth something.

anyways, change of venue...yet again.

by the way, misery is a choice.

this just happened...
me: "the word misery looks so empty."
abby: "that's because being miserable is empty. dude, that's deep!"

in conclusion,

"I'm not strong enough!" stated by mr. incredible himself.

but the thing is, We are strong enough.




I must seek His help...constantly.